back to camp tomorrow. to suffer.
i know im going to suffer.
i just refuse to enjoy myself.
i am one crazy dick.
i think with my other head too much.
should not devolve to it so much decision maing power.
haha.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
it's hard to go on facing each new day
the week was a blast. guardroom work is the foam. temperature taking involves planting yourself in a tent, with a 8806 that hardly works, filling up forms and handing stickers to a neverending line of cleaners, construction workers, reservist personnel, deliverymen, drivers. vehicle monitoring is the shit, sit there and take down the numbers of vehicles entering and leaving the camp. but the respite is that you can let music fill your empty soul.
other than those duty times, you get to slack in a room, watch movies. hehe. i watched southpark, which was one awesome movie. beneath all the senseless swearing, it actually strikes some raw nerves about disconnects in society, disparity and the protection of the freedom of expression. reminds that the conservative wing acting on its intolerance and becoming militant. watched also hostel 2, which was one depraved shit. waht with a lesbian hanging up a woman and carving her up with a crescent scythe before bathing in her blood. wasnt even scary, just depraved. fuck man. the guys who thought of all these need some help and vanilla porn. watched natl treasure 1 and 2, also watched some jack neo production and a cool summer boxing show with hott naked girls. not bad la, but they always cheebye you, at the climax get you to do saigang like remove barbed wire, call people up, move stuff around, deliver papers. nabeh. bully us.
being at the mouth of the camp is quite good. can see the minahs and lians from mdc. and they always dress hotly. hehe. can exploit the temperature taking to get a closer look at them. especially when ask them to come closer and bend forward to take temperature. they mostly look natural and nice. saw juanhe. he came for dental ffi before he disrupt. nabeh. bet he enjoyed the day. the dentist is one hot thing. all the horny rps keep thinking of how they are going to do her, what with her giving them a blowjob and then squirting all over her 'thick eyebrows'. and how hot it would be for her to kiss them after that. i just find sucking my own come disconcerting. and i find blowjobs disgusting anyway.
talking about rps, they are all nice, if lazy and sexcrazed. all they think of is boning the dog, blowing their rifle and having sex in the guardroom toilet, on top of discussing how they would fuck cpt jenny and the dentist. in the mean time they hump the tentage, ask the mdc minah to kiss them and the like.
csm is nice. nights off tues thurs. lols. we rapes hard man!
hehe.
i think im more inclined to sgs.
other than those duty times, you get to slack in a room, watch movies. hehe. i watched southpark, which was one awesome movie. beneath all the senseless swearing, it actually strikes some raw nerves about disconnects in society, disparity and the protection of the freedom of expression. reminds that the conservative wing acting on its intolerance and becoming militant. watched also hostel 2, which was one depraved shit. waht with a lesbian hanging up a woman and carving her up with a crescent scythe before bathing in her blood. wasnt even scary, just depraved. fuck man. the guys who thought of all these need some help and vanilla porn. watched natl treasure 1 and 2, also watched some jack neo production and a cool summer boxing show with hott naked girls. not bad la, but they always cheebye you, at the climax get you to do saigang like remove barbed wire, call people up, move stuff around, deliver papers. nabeh. bully us.
being at the mouth of the camp is quite good. can see the minahs and lians from mdc. and they always dress hotly. hehe. can exploit the temperature taking to get a closer look at them. especially when ask them to come closer and bend forward to take temperature. they mostly look natural and nice. saw juanhe. he came for dental ffi before he disrupt. nabeh. bet he enjoyed the day. the dentist is one hot thing. all the horny rps keep thinking of how they are going to do her, what with her giving them a blowjob and then squirting all over her 'thick eyebrows'. and how hot it would be for her to kiss them after that. i just find sucking my own come disconcerting. and i find blowjobs disgusting anyway.
talking about rps, they are all nice, if lazy and sexcrazed. all they think of is boning the dog, blowing their rifle and having sex in the guardroom toilet, on top of discussing how they would fuck cpt jenny and the dentist. in the mean time they hump the tentage, ask the mdc minah to kiss them and the like.
csm is nice. nights off tues thurs. lols. we rapes hard man!
hehe.
i think im more inclined to sgs.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
roulette
booking in later. life sucks.
hope guardhouse work will turn out just fine.
gonna learn myself driving.
hope guardhouse work will turn out just fine.
gonna learn myself driving.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
eudaimon
the week i wallowed in a sea of calm boredom, with nary much real stuff to do. saved from the monotony by Arion's dolphin, in the form of Plato's The Republic. hahas. i like the book a lot, although I think Socrates relies too much on analogies, and some analogies are clearly bad. how he reaches the conclusion that the soul is immortal makes me foam.
he rightly points out that philosophers are useless or dangerous, because either they think too much of a simplistic world of pure and honest individuals or they are just pretentious bastards. his republic will never work and surely degenerate, because he demands too much of his phulakes, or Guardians, requiring they be good fighters and good philosophers. quite hard. and his foamer ideas also dont work because there is no way to test the 'heavenly metals' in a person. not paying them is a joke, and no matter how much Reason a person has, his Ambition and Desire will also have some say in his life.
math (reason) appeal less to a common man than sex, after all, as thrasymachus rightly pointed out. sex affects everything and as homer mentioned, even zeus forgot the plan he thought of all night when he saw the silhouette of hera in the glow of the moonlight.
eugenics has gained much ground, although we do not expose the flawed babies as he suggest. meritocracy is in fact what contributes to his aristocracy and all. his revolutionary idea of breaking up the family unit and allowing all the returning winners to fuck all they please to produce the fittest young is a bit too extreme to seriously implement. social upheavel requires dissenssion in the ruling class, but for such serious displacement of the social order, much more is required.
else time, i read FHM Asian Edition. some special edition thingy. Ann Wu and Stacy Chou are HOTT HOTT HOTT man! taiwan is the bomb place. "boys liked to spank my butt when i was in school". "my friends call me papaya tree because i am slim but my top is heavy". but the quote that struck me most was "sex is about releasing the heat. making love is that and emotions". wow. cheem sia.
booked out on monday to buy foam cutter. i was foaming. ooc really can anyhow book out and do shit.
went to send zhenan off. met him at pp, went to his hostel and then to the airport. after almost 5 years in sgpore, i think he might forever not return. thats not a bad thing, for both singapore and him. there is one less prc and i dont see much that singapore has to offer. at least he neednt the servitude to which me and my 'brothers in arms' have been subjected.
its a close of a chapter, really. i consider myself lucky to have ever known well a chink as him, that not all chinks are one monolithic whole of a bastardic community bent on cheating the world. in china, honesty is one funny word. so is generosity. hehe. glad he isnt much like that.
anyways his people liberation army, victoria edition sent him off. aaron teoh also got off pass to send him off. aslc is one fun place lol. loves it lots.
tomorrow book in, sian. kena attached to guard room. hope it isnt fucked up. cannot sleep from dusk to dawn and dawn to dusk anymore. haiz. but neverminds, got tv and internet. yays.
he rightly points out that philosophers are useless or dangerous, because either they think too much of a simplistic world of pure and honest individuals or they are just pretentious bastards. his republic will never work and surely degenerate, because he demands too much of his phulakes, or Guardians, requiring they be good fighters and good philosophers. quite hard. and his foamer ideas also dont work because there is no way to test the 'heavenly metals' in a person. not paying them is a joke, and no matter how much Reason a person has, his Ambition and Desire will also have some say in his life.
math (reason) appeal less to a common man than sex, after all, as thrasymachus rightly pointed out. sex affects everything and as homer mentioned, even zeus forgot the plan he thought of all night when he saw the silhouette of hera in the glow of the moonlight.
eugenics has gained much ground, although we do not expose the flawed babies as he suggest. meritocracy is in fact what contributes to his aristocracy and all. his revolutionary idea of breaking up the family unit and allowing all the returning winners to fuck all they please to produce the fittest young is a bit too extreme to seriously implement. social upheavel requires dissenssion in the ruling class, but for such serious displacement of the social order, much more is required.
else time, i read FHM Asian Edition. some special edition thingy. Ann Wu and Stacy Chou are HOTT HOTT HOTT man! taiwan is the bomb place. "boys liked to spank my butt when i was in school". "my friends call me papaya tree because i am slim but my top is heavy". but the quote that struck me most was "sex is about releasing the heat. making love is that and emotions". wow. cheem sia.
booked out on monday to buy foam cutter. i was foaming. ooc really can anyhow book out and do shit.
went to send zhenan off. met him at pp, went to his hostel and then to the airport. after almost 5 years in sgpore, i think he might forever not return. thats not a bad thing, for both singapore and him. there is one less prc and i dont see much that singapore has to offer. at least he neednt the servitude to which me and my 'brothers in arms' have been subjected.
its a close of a chapter, really. i consider myself lucky to have ever known well a chink as him, that not all chinks are one monolithic whole of a bastardic community bent on cheating the world. in china, honesty is one funny word. so is generosity. hehe. glad he isnt much like that.
anyways his people liberation army, victoria edition sent him off. aaron teoh also got off pass to send him off. aslc is one fun place lol. loves it lots.
tomorrow book in, sian. kena attached to guard room. hope it isnt fucked up. cannot sleep from dusk to dawn and dawn to dusk anymore. haiz. but neverminds, got tv and internet. yays.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
the delicacy of life
every moment
something comes along to knock
some life out of me.
the cars have come to knock me down
the durians to poison me.
smoke i inhale intently
medicine that i abuse.
life was beautiful
still is
but i have grown weary.
something comes along to knock
some life out of me.
the cars have come to knock me down
the durians to poison me.
smoke i inhale intently
medicine that i abuse.
life was beautiful
still is
but i have grown weary.
mayflower
as expected, chevrons was a waste of time. cohesion is nothing but a waste of time. many people were late, and the real men among us got themselves excused. went to the same loser audi, now with engineers replacing golfers. baah. saving private ryan, a refreshing portrayal. macabre, but somewhat more realistic than all those romanticized nonsense. i am afraid of Death, even though i know that Death is drawing closer with every breath i take. i think war has become more humane now. we wont experience the agony of our orifices spilling out along a sandy beach or of our limbs getting blown to smithers. i think nkorea is going to get us all. our eyes will collapse into a pile of come, and our flesh will burn off of our bones before we even collapse to the ground. very nice.
anyways, bowling was a waste of time because i couldnt bowl. ended up destroying lane 20 of orchid bowl. i lobbed a 13pounder upwards and outwards in homage to seah and projectile motion. it came down and thundered, and lo, there was an indentation in the lane. fuck it, its not my lane.
wild wild wet. got baked in the hot sun. now my skin is red as hell. it is cracking and blistering. i hate the sun. no, wrong. i hate staying in the sun. i think i should see the MO for a downgrade to E9L9 for melanine deficiency. hah. but fuck that wont happen. no one cares for the hippocratic oath anymore.
went out with zhenan, stho and mark. met many others around city hall. somehow many like to lurk in the environs of old ri. pussiness. soon zhenan will be gone to china, and mark to medicine. stho is leading a happy stayout life. screw all of them. anyways, the chapter is probably coming to a close, now is a good time to start a new chapter, especially for zhegay. theres nothing to be sad about leaving friends behind. after a while, i think we will forget too. i know. i have forgotten clean almost everything about primary school. it is important to enjoy the present, and know that you enjoyed the past. if the past cannot translate into the present and possibly an enduring future, then so be it.
life goes on.
anyways, bowling was a waste of time because i couldnt bowl. ended up destroying lane 20 of orchid bowl. i lobbed a 13pounder upwards and outwards in homage to seah and projectile motion. it came down and thundered, and lo, there was an indentation in the lane. fuck it, its not my lane.
wild wild wet. got baked in the hot sun. now my skin is red as hell. it is cracking and blistering. i hate the sun. no, wrong. i hate staying in the sun. i think i should see the MO for a downgrade to E9L9 for melanine deficiency. hah. but fuck that wont happen. no one cares for the hippocratic oath anymore.
went out with zhenan, stho and mark. met many others around city hall. somehow many like to lurk in the environs of old ri. pussiness. soon zhenan will be gone to china, and mark to medicine. stho is leading a happy stayout life. screw all of them. anyways, the chapter is probably coming to a close, now is a good time to start a new chapter, especially for zhegay. theres nothing to be sad about leaving friends behind. after a while, i think we will forget too. i know. i have forgotten clean almost everything about primary school. it is important to enjoy the present, and know that you enjoyed the past. if the past cannot translate into the present and possibly an enduring future, then so be it.
life goes on.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
today is aaron's most important day
her birthday mah.
none of my business
OOC BUNKER
closer to God
nearer to heaven
among the clouds
time travels faster here than down there
as hawking declares.
ahaha.
everyday just read books in office
do saigang
my list for the week
Plato's The Republic
Mahbubani's The Age of Innocence
Machiavelli's The Prince
Go me Go!
none of my business
OOC BUNKER
closer to God
nearer to heaven
among the clouds
time travels faster here than down there
as hawking declares.
ahaha.
everyday just read books in office
do saigang
my list for the week
Plato's The Republic
Mahbubani's The Age of Innocence
Machiavelli's The Prince
Go me Go!
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