what i have been thinking about when i should be studying for my exam on this thursday

whether to help your relative selamat to hide from the authorities isnt an issue that can be solved morally or ethically. or even religiously. according to the imam there is some koranic reference that forbids aiding the escape of a criminal. but the koran is a voluminous tome that is not always crystal clear, so there probably exists some passages that can be used to claim aid for this relative selamat. the fact that there are so many terrorists who all claim some reference from somewhere is testament to this fact. and what they say about the bible, another abrahamic religion, that the devil can quote passages for his own ends, also holds true for the koran. just as the hardliners like to read it their way, the imam is also reading it his way.

it is hard to not assist a relative. even if the relative might have done something that society at large considers reprehensible. it is hard when the responsibility to the greater good and the responsibility to the family comes into conflict. and just as one cannot be sure that selamat is right or wrong, one cannot be sure if what society does is right or wrong. to use a lame example, whites used to enslave the blacks, something that we have come to consider as inhumane. at the time of nazi germany, probably some thought that it was morally just and ethically sound to gas the jews. i am quite sure there were at least as many true nazi collaborators as there were resistance fighters.

and socrates was put to death by his people, for what was considered some sort of poisoning of the minds of the athenian youths. which does not seem to make much sense today. of course i wont draw parallels between socrates and him, but it is difficult for an individual, especially relatives or close associates, like plato for the former and the niece of the latter, to completely accept the rightness of the society. and society isnt always right too.

of course some will point to the fact that it is unacceptable that we tolerate in our society people who are intolerant of others, of people who are willing to kill others for the cause of their warped utopia. that is true too. but what if it is utilitarian that some must die so the others may live better? dont we always force this logic of sacrifice down the throats of our soldiers who have died on flanders fields, on the marne and elsewhere all over? that some morally reprehensible monsters must die?

an ethical answer is hard to arrive at. instead all that they should do to prevent others from harboring their relatives is to dole out draconic penalties. as long as the moral payoff of harboring a wanted relative is lower than the material payoff of not harboring the relative, the chance of a similar occurence will be diminished. i am quite sure that just as the imam and the other religious leaders have moral authority, these terrorists might also be effective ethicists so it becomes difficult. tough life.

life's like that

so why fk it?

my cos is still not done, im afraid of foaming at it.

and im foaminghard at french.

sweden

where the state is the mama so the mama can be the man.

vikings should not be peaceful.

they should eat some boiled sheep head and go to war. not sit around in dresses waiting for the time of the month.

18 months of maternity/paternity leave. just gay.

i foam too much

:( i dont feel well.

semblable

i treasure the past so much i dont know i want to continue moving on into the future. ns was so disgusting. and it still is. i feel the need to reacquaint myself with my school days in ri or rj. when life was imperfect but enjoyable and carefreer. i have a very small comfort zone, and it is shrinking oddly while travelling across the plane of situations of life. unlike most of my homologues, i feel no urge to explore the world. i just dont want life like i know it to end.

2 weeks to my dalf and 3 weeks to my ord

time is passing quickly and slowly at the same time.

i need to ord tomorrow and sit for the dalf in a years time.

anyway have invested much time and effort in the classouting for 27 dec. i hope it turns out well. :D

nostalgia

yesterday was my last day in camp before i ord. went back for ord ffi, which took me the whole morning and a bit of the afternoon because the doctor needed to clear the report sick cases and the medics had no courtesy to inform the ffi guys that our ffis will get pushed back until the last report sick case is seen. which is completely ridiculous but as soldiers we all accept this nonsense. i have never waited any longer for my medical appointment.

luckily the indian reservist doctor was really nice and friendly, so my day was not completely ruined. and i was very focused in chasing down signatures and i returned books to tds and stuff, so now all i am left with is the champions signature because he was hospitalized for asthma. really chaokeng regular. have never seen one more openly chaokeng than he.

anyhows, as i took the shuttlebus out alone, because stho went awol after dental ffi and the clerk was on duty and my whole team was stuck with outpro, i started thinking very seriously about life outside of the army. it is going to become a reality, very soon. in 21 days. o m g. it is coming it is coming. my ord is coming. LOL. i pray for the best for my cos, which is completely arbitrary in actual fact, and i hope that everything rolls along smoothly.

i will miss playin pool with the other members of iti. i will miss it a lot, because i played pool alot, but unfortunately i still suck at pool. i will miss all the talkcock sessions too, those long lunches, those discussions about timestop and fetishes. i will miss those times when i find sensible logical people. of course there are also shitty times.

so i dont really want to stay any longer. iti has added little value to my life, and i have not been contributing much or even at all since my surgery. which was 6 months ago. i am happy to leave. its time to move on with life.