it's my life

finally its over.
but fuck.
chem is the last paper why did they have to make it so fucking tough?
i shouldnt have studied for it yesterday. i dont see how studying has made a difference.

ok u may begin.
flip page.
what the fuck i cant do question one.
i cant do question two either
i started foaming.
whatever juz randomly shade.
couldnt do a total of 12 of the 25 mcqs. what the fuck man. almost died.
paper ii was not much better. some questions dont even know what the fuck theyre asking for. fuck. study for fuck. fuck.

i know im going to fail.
for stho, its a matter of getting on the list
or between A and B
for me, its a matter of whether i get S or U
or whether im going to get retained and then his gc can be my ogl.

i came out livid
raped.
was glad to know everyone felt this way too.

journeyed to the canteen where everyone started spewing all sorts of vulgarities.
a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do.
1. so lenny suggests we seek out the chem tutors and beat the crap out of them. maybe rape them so they get a sense of how we feel.
2. yh wants to take responsibility for his actions. go look for a tall enough building.
3. i was too traumatised i juz kept swearing. fuck.

shouldnt have studied. studying made no difference. fuck. the marginal costs outstrips the marginal benefit. theres a deadweight welfare loss. im starting to see the application of econs to my everyday life. im starting to appreciate perfect information more. fuck.

last paper n i had to get screwed.
this is the worst paper this year. maybe all my life thus far.

adding to this is that im a fucking social misfit.
its like 2:40 now.
and im already at home. what kinda loser goes home so early on the motherfucking last day of exams. ok other than stho. everyone goes out with chiobu (hairy or otherwise)
for lunch. me?
stho, shenghao, marcus and zhenan.
fuck
tts damn motherfucking loser.

and then no one wants to play pool with me.

im so distraught, so motherfucking distraught.

going to surf.