today, we go bowling (the gay pink ball)

today, we go bowling.
have fun throwing (rather droping).
even tried rolling.
deh~

today, we go bowling.
try to score by jumping.
heard the nails scratching.
plzzzzzzzzzz.

today, we go bowling.
gals totally owning.
life is depressing.
arh doooooooootz.

today, we go bowling.
had milk tea drinking.
practised the straw blowing.
shhhhhhhhhhhh.

today, we go bowling.
cann't help whining.
still got to pwmping.
oooooopppppppppzzzzzzz.

life sux! gd luck for op!

songs i like

im so bored, not doing pw cos i feel spent.

favorite bands/singers. excludes the all time tops (ABBA, Bee Gees, the Beatles, Elvis Presley, John Denver, Michael Jackson, Queen)

Rufus Wainright
Instant Pleasure
Why does it always rain on me
Going to a Town
Hallelujah

Placebo
Pure Morning
Nancy Boy
Protege Moi

Muse
Feeling Good
Sing for Absolution
Unintended
Supermassive Blackhole
Hysteria

Radiohead
Fake Plastic Trees
High and Dry
The Tourist
Creep
Karma Police
Lucky
You and Whose Army
Airbag
Dollars and Cents
Idioteque
Let Down
You
Climbing Up the Walls
Talk Show Host

Bon Jovi
It's My Life
Have a Nice Day

Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Wet Sand
Hump de Bump
Dani California
Storm in a Teacup

The Eagles
Desperado
Hotel California
Tequila Sunrise
Doolin Dalton
Witchy Woman
Heartache Tonight
New Kid in Town
Life in the Fast Lane
Lyin' Eyes

Hey There Delilah by Plain White T's
Ruby by Kaiser Chiefs
Lips of an Angel by Hinder
Dust in the Wind by Scorpions
Purple Haze by Jimi Hendrix
Geek in the Pink by Jason Mraz
Night Drive by Jimmy Eat World
When You Were Young by the Killers
Plaisirs Solitaire by Madame Kay
Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana

yeah lol.

whiner winer winner

before i actually get down to any proper work, must whine.

somehow whining is one winning way.
doesnt solve any problem, but whining makes me feel better.
now, feeling good IS important.

pw op dry run yesterday was just
GGXX
now im trying not to be mean
but seriously i think my group might really be a liability and bring me a b. or worse.

let's analyze.

some of them dont speak audibly enough. its rather unfortunate that english is not their first language. which is quite a problem, cos they lack any confidence in what theyre talking about. their pronunciation is fairly screwy, so its a bit difficult to understand what they talk about. and they speak really softly, which is quite fked up.

coupled with the technical and higher level thinking required to grasp the immense contribution of grzywinski, the problem is compounded and no one actually understands what exactly is happening.

Q&A is a killershit. they just kena own non stop as hairy assholes try to gun the group down. the questions were ridiculously stupid, but they were pretty successful in exposing the flaws and bringing the group down.

and we're the last group of the day.

in this sense we are really quite dead.

the group is as strong as its weakest member, just as a chain is as strong as its weakest link. now now, how?

noob say noob la dont look for excuses

My son, a top student, returned home shattered after difficult PSLE maths paper Letter from GUO WEIFU THIS year’s PSLE mathematics paper has caused many students undeserved anguish. Their reactions, including that of the good and gifted ones, were one of despair and discouragement upon encountering problem sums that were set beyond their capabilities. Some even broke down right after the examination. My son is in a top class. Mentally strong and confident in mathematics, he returned shattered boy after the exam. I immediately checked with friends and teachers from other classes and schools, and the same story was heard. Although schools have been equipping pupils with the skills of applying mathematical concepts, many could not complete half or more of the problem sums. Is there a huge gap between expectations and ability? In the mind of a child, he has either failed or done badly. With his confidence ripped by the mathematics paper, how can a child recover in less than 24 hours to face the next paper? Tearing children apart mentally at a developmental stage snuffs out the joy of learning. The Singapore Examinations and Assessment Board (SEAB) had previously said “the exams were a means to differentiate students of diverse abilities by setting questions of varying difficulty levels”. It stated that an examination paper should be comparable in difficulty from one year to the next and “teachers know how to prepare their students for the examinations”. SEAB also stated that different teams of experienced setters, moderators and examiners conduct several rounds of checking of each question and for the paper as a whole. The fact different teams are involved is no consolation as it may be a systemic failure from pegging the paper at too high a standard. For some parents and students, education is seen as a source of mental torture. All I ask is this: Please give the children of Singapore the confidence to face their future with a lion’s heart.


anyway my lfies a mess
pw is a joke.

For the non-Chinese, 'Siam' is '闪'

riiight.
fuck my life is sucking like shit again.

youth leaders conference was a total waste of time. well the speaker they got is very good, but he gets a little dry after the novelty wears off. his weird sense of humor also got a bit irritating. with his talk at 2+ hours, it was seriously overkill. luckily i was sitting with juanhe, shayi and zhenan, and life seemed slightly better as we were retarded from time to time heheh. something tt wont happen if i sat with my damn serious vc.

i more or less burnt my day listening to crap. look, its not like this is going to help me make my cca better. the group discussion was total fuckedup crap, as councilors start proclaiming that veera is a total bitch, thimun n rj is totally fked up and all that. like hello we were supposed to be talking about goals? but id rather not entertain them with all this kinda shit.

then it was sodof group sharing, with kelvin yin cracking everyone up with his lameness. he is a serious joker man, can learn from aw and be some motivational speaker. haha its just his weird intonation and smile that makes him so funny.

klow also shared his life story like how he studied until pri 8. quite honest, but seriously draggy. so i ponned to join my pw group. hardly did any work however.

life seriously sucks. then juanhe forgets about calling me to get my stuff and i had to sprint all the way back before they lockup the damned pac. shit man.

anyways the saddest shit of all is that i dont have a single motherfucking attachment. my econs attachement got rejected! fuck! stupid asshole. i know it must be her. by marks alone surely im a rather deserving candidate. i dont see how by marks alone i should be kicked if they chose 30 people.

fuck she must have thrown away my application or gave me some fucked up appraisal. fuck. why is my life so suck. fuck fuck fuck. im dead. without attachment. fuck my cca records will be super nice clean and white. fuck. nothing to say about myself except im some wuss.

say byebye to any scholarship. looks like i would trod down the sad soggy path of self destruction, enter nus to read uninspired economics and whatnot, without double degree and i would be some empty nutcase, hopefully i can find a $2k a month job to sustain myself, maybe pay for my phonebills and exotic porn vids with a little left over, no porsche 911 for my first day of work (at this level it wouldnt make sense anyway).

somehow im not as deeply disappointed as before. maybe its because im getting accustomed to failing. maybe rjc has done well in teaching me lessons in life. maybe the tutors have been successful in thumbing me down. i scorn them. but, after the crescendo, the blows dont affect me as much. its much like diminishing returns. just as the first unit of fertilizer makes the crops grow better and the tenth unit only burns the crop. ive passed the point where the blows dont add to my misery, they only add to my pleasure. im a fucked up masochist.

after my hcl failure, my failure to even get the moe scholarship, my not getting straights, im distraught. but somehow im also numb, so the pain does not sear as deep.

im at peace as i stare down the sad dark tunnel that is going to be my life. a life with no sunshine, no hay, no companionship. and i am relieved. ive never felt better. the optimist in me tells me that darkness is good for me. dampness is good for me too. at least i wont get glaucoma. but heck i wont need my eyes, id just fall down and be too uninspired to pluck myself up from the muck. my brains would just turn to mush and slowly id become a huge slob of goo, which i actually am already not much better than.

at least i know i suck. and i can accept it. its karma. fucking karma. if this is my life then so be it.

why rj should hold leadership conference tomorrow and the day after

cos ccals are too free.
first it begins with a simple reminder on the egroup.

Hi CCALs!

most of you would have probably received an SMS on
Monday, 1 October, informing you of the upcoming RJC Leadership Conference. I'm
not sure if it includes A.CCALs as well, so for A.CCALs, please check with other
A.CCALs that you know, if they have received any of such messages. If they have,
then i would assume that you will have to be around for the conference as well.
This is just a reminder, just in case some of you have forgotten it, or have not
received it.

The conference will be on the 8th and 9th October, at
the PAC. Please report there at 0835 on both days in full uniform, and
attendance is compulsory. Those who have PW dry runs that clash with the
conference, please call Mr Low at 64199796 or Mr Chong at 64199690 (although it
might be a bit late now!).

That's all for now, see you all on
Monday!

then one person adds on to it, which is fine.

Hi all,

Just to add on to Jun Yang’s message – the leadership
conference does include A. CCALs, because I am the A. CCAL for Mathematics
Society and I have received such a message.

So see you all there on
Monday!

riiiiight. like we care who u are.

A.CCALs received it as well.if i'm not wrong, i believe whoever went to the CCAL
Camp would've received the msg and asked to attend. :)thanks for the reminder
anyway.

the next person gives a random opinion.

just randomly wondering.. anyone know what we're gonna be doing? with all due
respect, it sounds rather bleah..and why the . between A and CCAL? shouldn't it
either be ACCAL or A.C.C.A.L.?cheers,Rahul

a stupid question considering everyone knows its a bloody waste of time. and interesting observation of the discrepancy, aha.

there'll be a 1.5 hour session on monday for us to all split into
designated groups for sharing and stuff. not sure if there'll be any
facilitation/what exactly we're gonna share about but yeah. probably discussion
of like. common problems and stuff. and the rest of the time we dont know,
probably workshops and talks and stuff like that.

and the president responds. like wtf.

so we should all go for the conference cos we are so damn bloody free

especially me cos i bother to blog about it. haha.

passion between the sexes

knowledge and the wealth of nations is beginning to be such an interesting and rewarding read. somehow its nice to know about how all the econs fall together. i know more economists now.

Adam Smith
Karl Marx
Malthus
Alfred Marshall
Nicholas Keldor
John Hicks
Josef Schumpeter
AC Pigou
Allyn Young
John Maynard Keynes

but i cant really remember the bits of the book.
after i finish maybe id record all the interesting quotes so i can mug them so i seem smarter than i really am.

(side track. i didnt take the iq test on facebook because i dont want to know im stupid. especially when people are entering 145 and 143 kinda scores, sorry i dont need to lower my self esteem and bruise my ego anymore. thanks)

i read about 100 pages in about 1/2 hr. not impressive, but somehow i had to keep going forwards and back to totally appreciate what the books about. and considering i have never actually read a book since maybe end of last year (notes and sloman not considered) quite an achievement ya.

apart, went to see cars again, too much time to burn.

had great food this weekend, from waraku to the line at shangri la. both are quite nice and i think im still super bloated. soup restaurant was just pathetic and the prc server just sucked. the food is quite salty too. yucks.

fuck tmr got youth leaders conference. what a nice sounding name for hoarding all of us into pac to order us to do shit for the school for no gains. whatever man. going to refine my pw op script while they talk. hah.