bah bah black sheep have you any wool?

the main problem is that i dont give a fuck about anything until it becomes serious. i dont have goals. i just do stuff spontaneously. and sometimes i dont know why i do some stuffs. but i have to live with the consequences. if i actually had concrete goals and i had actually worked on them, i probably wouldnt have ended up in ptp and now i wouldnt be regretting that i didnt spend bmt as best as i could have. if my life actually had any focus i wouldnt have records that make me look like a schizo cock. i enjoyt my aimless life but i have nothing much to show for it. just a lump of fuckshit to show for nothing.

i contribute by providing new perspectives. again i cannot really demonstrate it. i have unconventional ideas, according to juanhe who had happily reflected it on my ri testimonial. unconventional. ideas. ive had many. many small and insignificant ones.

maybe its cos i enjoy philosophy and economics. hahas. the many different perspectives, the many different ways to work with perception and interpretation and the ways one can influence another through a series of actions. that probably is about all that i have to say.

teamwork. i know i am a team player, because i am nothing without my team. i keep slacking so without my team to prop me up i probably will mash into the ground like some spineless goo. fucking hell.

in 300 words my inconsqeuntial low level experiences probably will make my essay look like fuck. and what makes it worse is that there are more than 400 people in rj who have got 90 ranking points. fucking ar. looks like i hav to be content with pussying around in a local uni and pussying around in a pussy job.

a pussy future welcomes me. just as my pussy past bids farewell.

anyways zhenan should blog more. waste less time with his kids. if they want to learn, all is well and good- teach them well. if they dont want to learn, its their pasal. after all, u need some people to fill up the bottom of the bell curve and lazy people should be more than welcome to take up the spots. 50-60% of them probably have their ability well-reflected by their psle score. dont need to prepare them for competitions. ri always wins. and even if ri doesnt win, it must be with immense providence tt vs can get anywhere close. as his student said, he is only a relieffe. he should learn from the saf mentality- serve and fuckoff.

firefly

its all of 300 words, but it really is the bomb tough. just to come up with the relevant points is already hard. this can be attributed to the fact that my goals in life are mainly hedonistic and definitely incompatible with that of a scholarship board. i have gone through their websites and meditated upon what they wrote, but it is abit tough to harmonize anything about me with anything about them, and anything about the 3 of them at the same time.

smu essay is real fucked, dont really understand the question. i dont see why a pussy uni like smu wants to act all haughty about things. new pedagogy my dick.

Reason, the Devil's harlot

still agonizing. after the spell wore off im back to brooding about my future. should i apply Medicine or Law & Econs? i know i will enjoy law n econs at least throughout my studies. but corporate law has been getting quite tough and stressful especially with all these ponzi schemes. and then i know many lawyers are getting hardraped with long hours late nights and no life. life will be like shit. or can be expected to be like shit at least for the first few years.

i think i will be fine with medicine. if i take medicine i will want to be a plastic surgeon or gyne. then i will enjoy my job. just that in the first place i dont think nusmed will want me. 260 students everyone very brilliant with great aptitude. nothing distinguishes me. theres no reason they should want me. i have not done any attachment and am not a pedigree. on top of it i hate science in general and chem in particular. having to go through this nonsense in year one really puts me off.

i know it impacts my career and my future lots. im stressed.

NUS NTU OPENHAUS

i am intoxicated:

for
today at ntunbs




i saw the most beautiful girl in the world.




all the rest, is background music.

samuel 'tho' maxwell

i'm sitting in the class room 4I

well, here i am. sitting in the classroom 4I. gave my students free period and i myself started blogging. life is boring. still got to go NYP for competition later.

life looks bleak. nothing good s happening. maybe juz having lunch or recess with 1F is something fun every day.

went out with aaron yesterday. actually we took a cab to woodland and then cab back. haha. spend 40 bucks juz to go singapore sports school to submit a form. but the trip was fun. talk cock..

then we went parkway for lunch at 3 in the afternoon. then don joined us at parkway cause the pussy cannot find the way to the BBQ pit that his platoon is supposed to meet. so we had a road march along ECP from PP to VJ. it was nice to meet old friends. and it is nice to finally talk to someone my age, who won't hide my stuff and talk abt sex everytime. haha. well good for a change.

after sending don for his bbq, aaron and i went to the hawker center for seafood. lie on the beach and stare at the red color moon and stars. it was nice. talk cock.

life was great last night.

but not now. esp when i realize that i still have to mark 40 MCQ papers. sianz!!!!

act blur live longer

bbq was nonsense. left early cos they were whistling at girls and gambling (blackjack) openly. scared police come sias. anyway there wasnt enough food to go around and the zealous cooks keep fanning the flame so that the outside is charred and the inside is uncooked.

today is 4p lunch. which is the bombe. going to meet 3IPS awardees, billions of perfect scorers (like your truly! =)) 6 or 7 scholarship awardees and more.

hahahahs.

nus.