bah bah black sheep have you any wool?

the main problem is that i dont give a fuck about anything until it becomes serious. i dont have goals. i just do stuff spontaneously. and sometimes i dont know why i do some stuffs. but i have to live with the consequences. if i actually had concrete goals and i had actually worked on them, i probably wouldnt have ended up in ptp and now i wouldnt be regretting that i didnt spend bmt as best as i could have. if my life actually had any focus i wouldnt have records that make me look like a schizo cock. i enjoyt my aimless life but i have nothing much to show for it. just a lump of fuckshit to show for nothing.

i contribute by providing new perspectives. again i cannot really demonstrate it. i have unconventional ideas, according to juanhe who had happily reflected it on my ri testimonial. unconventional. ideas. ive had many. many small and insignificant ones.

maybe its cos i enjoy philosophy and economics. hahas. the many different perspectives, the many different ways to work with perception and interpretation and the ways one can influence another through a series of actions. that probably is about all that i have to say.

teamwork. i know i am a team player, because i am nothing without my team. i keep slacking so without my team to prop me up i probably will mash into the ground like some spineless goo. fucking hell.

in 300 words my inconsqeuntial low level experiences probably will make my essay look like fuck. and what makes it worse is that there are more than 400 people in rj who have got 90 ranking points. fucking ar. looks like i hav to be content with pussying around in a local uni and pussying around in a pussy job.

a pussy future welcomes me. just as my pussy past bids farewell.

anyways zhenan should blog more. waste less time with his kids. if they want to learn, all is well and good- teach them well. if they dont want to learn, its their pasal. after all, u need some people to fill up the bottom of the bell curve and lazy people should be more than welcome to take up the spots. 50-60% of them probably have their ability well-reflected by their psle score. dont need to prepare them for competitions. ri always wins. and even if ri doesnt win, it must be with immense providence tt vs can get anywhere close. as his student said, he is only a relieffe. he should learn from the saf mentality- serve and fuckoff.