Cardboard Pau

in a pensive mood
surfing makes me high
it gets me really high
first the texts
then the stills
then the clips

climax

ooooh

and my euphoria
my level of pleasure just nosedives
but its not a feeling of emptiness
or disgust

but some glowing satisfaction
it leaves a hedonist like me, happy.
i live for pleasure

i guess this is so
so mainly so because
i am quite a
loser
in all aspects
im not good looking
im not good at sport
im not good at academics (econs B what more can i say)
im not a person to be liked
well, i suck
through and through

i know it.
theres nothing much i have to live for
when im not around
no one would feel a loss
anyway

so im content with living a life of simple
pleasure
instant pleasure
no matter how basic
no matter that im treating people but
mere actors
no matter that they are means to my end
i dont give a fuck about kant anyway, that connasse

so i surf
then i ram it through the door
then i bang it through the floor
(haha that was a nice poem on the simplest instant pleasure in life when i was in sec 3)

its not dirty or disgusting to me
its perfectly fine
deep down inside
everyone has his dark inhibitions
something he doesnt want to share
its normal
so heed me
just do it
follow your instincts
they cannot be wrong

just fuck those pious
religious bastards
they dont know what theyre doing
who're they to tell you what to do
there might be a god above
but those are mere writings of
masochists
true masochists not those who love
physical pain
them people who deny themselves
pleasure
hoping to score points for their
afterlife

they dont know what theyre doing
seriously
greed.
lust.
gluttony.
why they be sins
why they be sins

tell me.

im no gentleman
i dont aspire to be one
i am not more charitable to girls
haha i did not give them pineapple tarts

the world is getting quite screwed up
zealots, them terrorists
back to my pet topic
prc
well they mix cardboard into their paus.
pau be the correct spelling btw
not bao u hanyupinyin bastards
i never liked hanyupinyin anyway
too uncool, too mandarin in the sense of
court mandarin
anyways
chinks
them commies
they never cease to amaze me with
their grit and their creativity
from slavery
to fake eggs
to using human hair
to make soy sauce
to cardboard paus
nice
the demon in me salutes them
what brilliance, them chinks
and zhenan says
they be so
because they are poor
ok so poverty is a good justification
for doing such bullshit
shit
tomorrow forgive the poor man
for scratching your car
forgive the beggar for robbing
you
he poor be.

in other prc related news
i heard a prc girl topped econs
haha
many possibilities
that she is pro
that the teachers mark leniently
that she bribed the teachers
or ak's reason
econs is muggable and
these nolifers just mug
mug mug mug
or my preferred reason
theyre thousand year old spirits that have mugged like shit
through their thousand year lives
its like, when they were in school in china,
history was current affairs

well prcs always win
on the topic of losers
another of my favorite topics
the pe dept
put up a list of napfa failures
haha
i and the previous chairman was on the list
so much for an inclusive environment
losing is not an option in rj
losing is not just the lack of attainment
it is the embarrassment
it is the humiliation
the list does its job
it names the failures, and it shames them
rj wanted to rip it off
rightly so
why should it be there
to remind us that we suck
to remind us that we are a disappointment
fuck the dept

must buck up.