elite \ pain

life is good when u just drift in and out of lecture theaters and science labs. life gets even better when u screw up the whole experiment cos u dont pay any attention to what chung has to say and ur obsesses with messing around with the bromine water, cyclohexene and all that shit. life rocks when u just pour it down the sink and add to the pollution. although i dont really know why, someone please enlighten me.

and then u go home and nap from 3 to 5. the feeling when u wake up is just, good. i sleep a hell lot, but usually i still feel sleep deprived. napping just helps u reach a high. to rocket to the nethers, i then surfed some bdsm. its really perverse, all this sadomasochism, but somehow i get really turned on by it. when the get whipped and have hotwax dripped on them, surgical needles stuck through them, i just get high. some sort of endorphin release. oh mon dieu. am i really turning into de sade?

as i see these women having their ahem roped together and then tied and then suspended, i somehow feel, excited. but i guess theres nothing wrong with this. everyone has his own attraction, this happens to be mine. and all the actresses were to a large extent consenting, i suppose. now dont come with the crap that says that they need the money so they are forced to do it. cos u know that if they didnt need the money, many teachers wouldnt teach and many cleaners wouldnt clean.

objectification of women? no. i respect many women in the world. ok i do think of them naked from time to time, but that does not discount the fact that i respect them as individuals. i do more than that, i respect their form. hehe. i imagine them in various stages of undress and i can rotate them and angle them in 3d vector space. but that doesnt discount my respect for them as individuals. looking at david or the vitruvian man and appreciating them, even carnally doesnt discount ur respect for all men in the world.

tomorrow is april fools day. i wonder if her parents really thought that she was a joke.

tomorrow the school declared off cos of the fantastic a level results. which cant exactly be considered fantastic actually. cos rj already takes in better students. the day off is supposed to be a day of rest, but i guess my fellow rafflesians have been programmed to mug day and night, so tomorrow is for gay mugging. already stho has a plan mapped out.

i better stop slacking from wednesday. today in shida's class, they were discussing carbonyl compounds. im at qn 3 of halogen derivatives.

morebdsm.