i love you too much to ever start liking you

im fucking my life up.

smu. im fucking up my h3.havent been puttin in enough effort for my test in 2 days. which means im going to get raped real bad by the test. grabbed by the balls and flung into the iron maiden.

knn i still cant do tt fucking question. the only consolation is that real men like royce and bernard dont know how to do either. heh. but then, what if all the hwachongays know how to do it? then i guess i will get raped real hard when they draw the bello curve.

everytime i go to my smuemail i see the fucking ap report, which really pains me. ive sort of come to terms with it. yea, its not all zhenans fault. not all bq's fault. but its hard to swallow, that i have fucked up everything along the way, that i am foaming like a real gay now. rotten luck.

anyway chem is another pain. i mugged for it, but i still got a B. at least 8 marks are complete careless mistakes. now B is really bad. a flying B means no more oxbridge. since theres no way my econs is going to be an A. i fucked my econs up real bad. after elaine went through qn 2, i was in a state of compelete paralysis. thats when even tickling my flagpole wont raise my flag. and then there are the fuckers who rape chem and then complain and suan u. among them the most heinous is samuel tho jun wei the faggot stho.

well, sengteck got 88% for chem. so stho comes along and says, "whoa, sengteck got 20% more than u." now thats a statement of fact, and even though its pretty unpleasant, i dont mind such statements. and then he goes, "sengteck sucks."

fuck. like aaron says, i is surrounded by bastards. haha like ronald who suanned juanha. haha. now im really sad. i feel really screwy. like a real pussy gay.

and then i fail napfa. im just a total loser. good for nothing piece of shit. cant even gay a silver for napfa. when real men from the 3o point club make gold seem like a given. i struggle to pull 2, and these men just get on the bar and do 10 and say, waits i go for another set. i foam after completing 2.4 in like 13mins++, and they come in in like 10 mins and start preparing to play soccer?

ouch. im a total loser. a total loser.

im depressed. im going to surf porn to happy up myself.