Saturday, March 7, 2009

we shall not be moved

the thing is, life goes on. whether you get straightAs or straightBs for the A levels, life goes on. the next day the heady feeling disappears and you probably will be back to milling about as you have done before. criticizing stupid people, insulting each other, surfing porn...A levels is the past already.

anyways ive decided to apply to medicine just for the fun of it. (medicine is really not my thing. chemistry can just fuck off. i point my middle finger at all chemistry textbooks.) i probably can help cut out some people. hahas. anyways before i forget christy says he will treat anyone from 4p for free. and i shall assume that so will stho. hahas. i know 4p did well. so did niu. she was at the hall for some reason. with tay.

supposed to do my commandersappraisal and bmtreflections but my inertia is stopping me. better get it done. dont want to get confined with ronald. haha.

after 12 or is it already 13 weeks on tekong, i already think studying overseas might not be for me. i dont like to live alone and have a complete change of a set of friends. i dont like the world to change so much, so fast and so radically around me. i like progressive changes. like from RI to RJ the transition was smooth cos i get to see the 2j4p guys. i like familiarity.

and, without my family, my existence would be as in rousseau's state of nature- sad, solitary and brutish.

on top of that i am lazy. i dont want to make my bed, do my laundry, settle my 3 meals by myself. i am a helpless dick. a lazy fuckshit.

the only thing stopping me is the mileage that i would get from crossing the pacific or the indian ocean.i dont want to regret for life when everyone earns 6 or 7 figures and i earn 5 figures. that sucks cock. but thats for when i have time to worry.

for now,

i can't wait for pop. so can't the fishes around tekong.

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