i want to break free

disaster strikes, again.
nope, not the bhutto assassination. thats be sodof old news.
ihc has not been approved.

well, well, im still not very clear why it has not been approved or whether the councilors can overwrite the previous approval or even whether the previous correspondence with dangerous dave even constituted an approval.

as chairman, im pretty disappointed, because im leading the club into a labyrinth of tunnels. dark, deep shitholes. (as an individual, no ihc, less work to do, more time to mug) in good tradition, we screwed up caq. in good tradition, from what i heard about it from sengteck n alan. n from the j2s themselves.

while i feel that the club should exist peacefully minding its weekly activities, it has come to my attention that going for weekly sessions doesnt give u any mileage on ur testimonial. for the chair, its ok, but for the member, it looks like shit on his records.

even if i dont really like them, i guess im responsible for them. so now i just have to hope that the acjc-rjc thingy sodof gets approved. so theres some big shit to write in their testimonials.

cca feste jan 9th. which doesnt leave me with too much time. must meet them and chart the path till june, when i will just handover and start mugging for As already. the sessions already seem very screwed up. the j2s, our batch, decided that theres nothing in recas for them to look forward to. they dont want to discuss, debate or listen. and the few who talk already move to other ccas cos they have no positions.

my life is pretty screwed up. a string of Bs and i hardly mugged this hols. 1 month of attachment almost consumed my whole holidays. i didnt do any SAT on my flights, because the plane stank of china and the seats were really cramp (or better, i became really tall). SAT is in 26 days. and i cant get more than 2000. screw it. my results are seriously gg.

if j1 is supposedly the slow, relax, play ur dick off year, then im seriously going to die. i already dont think i can finish my homework n revise, much less mug like a mugger. add to it my AP & H3, seriously im going to get fucked damn badly.

and cip. and helping aaron and jordan if possible. but i hope they dont count on me to set up the club.

life is fucking tough.