this is where i won't be alone...

... for this is where i find many of my own kind. many losers that is. im surrounded by losers like myself. there are many winning ways, men and groups in singapore, like her worldclass airport, her chem olympiad theory champion and yeah, arguably, creative. then there are the many brilliant singers.

but there are a hell lot more losers. we have our athletes, i daresay a bunch of clowns. i think using a helicopter to dump coins into singapore river and then getting little boys and girls to fish the coins out is a better way to increase J and increase AE. at least fishing out the coins would be more interesting and exciting. after a while, losing gets a bit boring. especially when ur a loser, u dont need to be reminded of the shit ur in.

i remember the ridiculous world cup 2010 dream. yea, its good to dream big, but that is a ridiculous dream. as ridiculous as dreaming of owning the god-like peoples like lq or ronald or juanhe or daojie, when ur a mere mortal, maybe even a lesser mortal struggling to remove yourself from the C region. or just struggle at integration. or a pussy mortal who cant even pass napfa. to pussies like me, and arguably most of singapore, all we can do is sit and weep. or bite the dust.

in singapore, there is much to talk about, but somehow, nothing in the public arena is any good. look at the forum. wow theres this brilliant boy who talks about how he wants to pursue his law degree at UOL even though it wont be recognized in singapore, and then he has the cheek to ask if singapore doesnt recognize the degree because the law degree from the uk covers international law and all that. something along the lines of implying that singapore is resistant to foreign pokings around our legal system.

what this loser needs is a slap across the face to wake him up. come on. we all know that oxbridge and 13 other uk university llbs and llms are accepted in singapore. if ur just a pussy who cant get into these 15 unis, incl nottingham and the like, and cannot get into nuslaw or smulaw, then just accept tt ur a pussy n go poke ur nose someplace else. uol my balls. dun come up with the crap to say tt u need city living, cos ucl n lse also provide recognized law courses. and as far as i know u can choose to pursue eu law as a module, apart from weirder courses like roman law.

i dont hate whiners. i dont hate myself. but i wont suffer whiners who whine about ridiculous stuffs like this to the nation's only broadsheet. people like him are infectious and intensify the already screwed up atmosphere. but i hope the forum editor chose his article because the rest were more crap.

anyway, clearly singapore is devoid of news, or devoid of worthy journalists. just go to H19 of today's paper. yup, splashed across it is daniel cheng, who most of us know better as the 156 pervert. yupp. something is going seriously wrong when we start to report on weirdos like him in the home section. and then the level of journalism is real poor, the language is real poor n all tt. i heard lky used to call up the straits times to complain when he sees mistakes. i dont think he does anymore. or else he is not very effective, because almost everyday i spot a mistake. the most glaring of errors like misspelt names. i dont profess to be very able at spelling names or spelling anything for that matter, but the names in the main article and in the caption are different. like wtf?

and then they change their style and give away a car. is this even necessary? i think its better if they send their journalists to motivational courses to get them to take pride in their work. or maybe they should just buy more coffee for the much needed caffeine boost. those losers.

anyway since the 156 perv is my hero, i read the article. he's a real weirdo living in a world of his own man. anyhow take photos and all that. i think its quite cool to be so weird. of course it wont be very nice if ri boys take photos of u or pour chili sauce on u. but its cool to just keep sitting around in kfc, smile at ri boys, then at a certain time take 156 to bt timah to perv hci boys. well i took bus with him before, numerous times in sec 1. cos i didnt know he was a perv. i just thought he was a friendly gay. and at that point i thought nothing more. only after lamnams00n told me during irs that hes a gay who molested boys then got fired did i start to become wary of him. i was homophopic then. now im more enlightened. im not homo, but im not homophobic anymore.

enough of the shit.

yesterday was natl day celeb in sch. it rained, so the thousands spent erecting tt silly tentage was spent for naught. cant help it, rain is not a predictable thing. or is it? well, i heard from jonseow that they might spray the sky to induce rain a few days before natl day so that it wont rain on the day itself. i find this hard to believe though, because even in the doldrums the winds can still move quickly. i dont know.

i think rjmoderndance is real good. although jorddy told me their dance was pornographic. i think it bordered on the edgy, sensual, but not exactly sexual. to a certain extent, the dance is a little inappropriate, but thats what art is all about. it is supposed to awake ur inner self and get u to feel something. of course it had nothing to do with my manhood. but i thought all the thrusting and sashaying on stage was hot. and at the cusp of adulthood many of them had all the right proportions. of course, dance girls tend to have the best figures in school, and their attire leaves little to the imagination. but i must say their make up was horrid. i guess the hotness made up for it. streetdance, on the other hand, was lousy.

we shouldnt try to deny ourselves some natural sexual reactions. of course we should hold back from squeezing that ass or feeling that chest, but we should embrace the fact that god made us to be sexual creatures. we are programmed to want to f**k. its only normal. and embracing it adds to our sense of wellbeing. which is very important for losers like me, who get crushed by work and deprivation of rewards in every other aspect, that life is so tough. when i see the stack of prelim papers, i foam. when i see my ct grades, i also foam. when i see my sgc, i foam real hard. the only relief i get is when i do what a man's gotta do.

and doing what a man's gotta do well make a man a happy man. as long as the fetishes and perversions do not harm others or oneself, if one likes it, i says go for it. resistance is futile.

anyway class lunch at ms clarity was little different from an all guys outing as we discussed among ourselves, we being zhegay, aar, mx, lenny, yiheng n me. the food, fish in cordon bleu was bad. the batter was thick and overcooked, and the cake was a tad too sweet and lacked texture. the cheesecake wasnt dry enough for my liking. and the pudding was disgusting, like stale kueh lapis with evaporated milk. the deco of complementary colors was nauseating. too pussy already. so, dont go to miss clarity cafe along upper thomson. it isnt worth ur money. cos basically, it sucks.

time to watch the olympics opening.