where is the spin doctor

the last time i felt this way, it was 2006. it was about ratifying the CCA records, and then as now, the air felt the same, and i felt alone. and i was very, very troubled. one right move will seal the deal, one wrong one and my world would fall apart. now as then, i felt regret that i did not play my hand as well as i could and should have. but as well, now as then, i feel some hope. and i tread carefully.